Believe...NOT

You're in the best of your senses all the days of your life...
You could do things trudging the right path... undisturbed... Smile without the fear of spilling the glass of juice and get stained... Never too conscious of what others may say...
Never fucked up... Never feeling as if the whole world is looking at you...

Then suddenly, you fall in love... Thinking high.. Expecting the most wonderful feeling in the whole wide world.. Wanting to feel comfort. It has been so wonderfully amazing at first.. So wonderful that you have forgotten how good you've been. How easy you felt before. You cared no more as to what may happen...

WHY? Because he made you believe he loves you as much... made you hope that there's something in the relationship... even made you feel he really cared.
Everything seemed so real. Because he made you believe he loved you.

Those were the stupidity days... and now please be awake and believe that you have your own life to live... And believe not... in him... anymore.

Happy Valentine's Day!

It's another special day for lovers in love... There are a lot of things you may do today as special as you want it to be... But whatever that thing is, you are still doing this for love.

Love is something so special and wonderful. It's mysterious but it's as fabulous for a feeling there is. It conquers all as what others may say. But it too is as painful when it tries to teach you a lesson so for it to be as sweet and as lovely.

Love. Love. Love.

For me it's amazing as it should be although it has not done any good to me these days. It has crashed my heart for the nth time. It has teared my feelings apart that I know no more what it can give to me...

But in time, I know, I will be better. I will be as good as new... In time.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Power Love: Letter

Dear Teacher Gabrielle,

I have never been a fan of radio programs giving advices to those who are with love problems not until I've had my own. I've always thought that crying it all out would be the best solution or rather, act as if nothing's happened... But listening to lovers' problems made me realize I might need one to advice me too.

I am such a major big looser when it comes to loving. My friends would usually ask for my opinion when it comes to their lovelife. That's the irony. And I hate it a lot. It seems like I'm one brainless lad, totally forgot what she's been sharing with others.

And here it goes... I used to work in Manila as a call center agent. I would just visit Ormoc for short vacations. Recently, I came home for a 3-day vacation and to cut it short, I met this 21 year old guy. I must admit he;s cute, has the good choiceon clothes and totally appealing. I spent much of my time with him rather than my family and sacrificed reunions with friends... Eventually, we have fallen inlove with each other or should I say, I did fall inlove. So much. His sweetness, his generosity and everything. Sounding both bitter and inlove am I?

I may have been so stupid then for not having realized that it'll end like this. He never introduced me to his family for all those times we've been together. It could've seemed so short. 3 days... But I managed to introduce him to my family... Know what's crazier? He made me promise to work here instead. And I did. I had to go back to file my formal resignation because in my heart, it was all set. "He's the man," I thought... I didn't even wonder why in my 2nd day in Manila, he stopped communicating with me anymore... I don't know what made me push my resignation still despite of that...

I at once flew back because I was missing him already. Eventually, I expected him to fetch me at the Tacloban Airport just like when I left. It's impossible if somebody would tell me I didn't tell him. I did.

So there. I arrived at around 2:50PM and with full of excitement turned my cellphone back on... There were 10 messages unread but of course I opened the message from Charles. It read: "I will always love you my Danielle... You have been a blessing to me..." Honestly, I was delighted knowing that but I twinged because there was something more... It said: "My ex-girlfriend is pregnant and I am the father... I'm sorry but it has to end this way... I can'y continue to hurt you because of this..."

It was like all the lights were turned on before I opened the message but suddenly,there was a major black-out. I couldn't see anymore for tears suddenly rushed down my cheeks... The power that kept me holding failed me... When all the stupidity in the whole wide world came in, most of it came to me...

Teacher Gab... I need you to please enlighten me right now. I am home doing nothing. A part of me still hoping for him to text... A part of me hates him for doing this to me... He may claim this isn't his fault but he has a choice, right? I don't know what to do really... I've given up a lot just for him... Please help me.

-Danielle-