It's Never How Long... But How Deep...

Friends are treasures found... but once found, they're never identical. They have their own worlds. They have their own stories even if they are related by blood.

It's never how long you've met the person but how deep you've known each other even just for a very short period of time.... It will always be how much you have dared to be with each other and even dared to share even the tippest tip your hair... without hesitation and without any doubt...

There are not much people in this world whom you can dare to be yourself with. People you can easily feel comfortable with and people who can make you feel fine even if they have not done anything really really special except for the fact that they have shared their life with you. That's more than anything special in this world.

I have met two angels living a life in two different heavens just four days ago... Have known them not in the past but it seemed like we have known each other for years... It wasn't hard for me to enter the lives they call their haven for now and their feelings dwelling in different sanctuaries because they've let me. And it has been an honor... so much of an honor... and i thank them for the trust and the faith they have in me.

Personalities differ as much as experiences in life and there's nobody who can question that. There may be people who believes not in destiny but there are some who does. If the person is destined to have that kind of fate, then that's it but, if you can still do something about it, it's time to do your share for your life if you want it changed...for the better. Take courage and believe in the gifts that God has showered you. They have not been made to sleep but to be put into practice. Have not found them yet? Try finding them... it's somewhere inside your heart...

We can never question the happiness that lies before us in the future and the present even. Whatever makes us happy is what we think is right at the moment. All we have to do is just make it right. How? Think of what's best for people around you especially those that are really connected to you and ask yourself if you would really be happy with holding on or just letting go and venturing to another phase in life... Not so simple but never even that hard. You can never force yourself to be happy with something. Just open your heart and open your mind, you'll be free.

As what I've said, it is never how long you've been together with the person. It should be how much you know about them and how much they have shared their thoughts with you. It is just sad that I have met them in this time of my life when I have to go and leave this place I have learned to love. A place where I found a sanctuary. A good one at that. It has never been the best place but not even the worst. Different people. Different personalities. Different experiences.

It was only with these two angels where I've been moved much despite from the fact that I have been receiving love problems to give my advices to but it's different when people shares their life personally and would even reach out to you and give their own thoughts about their life. Way too different, isn't it? It's just a big relief. Another way for God to tell me that I am not alone...

Thank you so much to my new found friends for making me realize a lot of things. It has been my pleasure knowing you both. So different, so unique but equally amazing. Time heals all wounds as what a song says. And let me say, i hope the song for our friendship plays now until forever... With much love and prayers for you both! I'll miss you! :-)

Believe...NOT

You're in the best of your senses all the days of your life...
You could do things trudging the right path... undisturbed... Smile without the fear of spilling the glass of juice and get stained... Never too conscious of what others may say...
Never fucked up... Never feeling as if the whole world is looking at you...

Then suddenly, you fall in love... Thinking high.. Expecting the most wonderful feeling in the whole wide world.. Wanting to feel comfort. It has been so wonderfully amazing at first.. So wonderful that you have forgotten how good you've been. How easy you felt before. You cared no more as to what may happen...

WHY? Because he made you believe he loves you as much... made you hope that there's something in the relationship... even made you feel he really cared.
Everything seemed so real. Because he made you believe he loved you.

Those were the stupidity days... and now please be awake and believe that you have your own life to live... And believe not... in him... anymore.

Happy Valentine's Day!

It's another special day for lovers in love... There are a lot of things you may do today as special as you want it to be... But whatever that thing is, you are still doing this for love.

Love is something so special and wonderful. It's mysterious but it's as fabulous for a feeling there is. It conquers all as what others may say. But it too is as painful when it tries to teach you a lesson so for it to be as sweet and as lovely.

Love. Love. Love.

For me it's amazing as it should be although it has not done any good to me these days. It has crashed my heart for the nth time. It has teared my feelings apart that I know no more what it can give to me...

But in time, I know, I will be better. I will be as good as new... In time.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Power Love: Letter

Dear Teacher Gabrielle,

I have never been a fan of radio programs giving advices to those who are with love problems not until I've had my own. I've always thought that crying it all out would be the best solution or rather, act as if nothing's happened... But listening to lovers' problems made me realize I might need one to advice me too.

I am such a major big looser when it comes to loving. My friends would usually ask for my opinion when it comes to their lovelife. That's the irony. And I hate it a lot. It seems like I'm one brainless lad, totally forgot what she's been sharing with others.

And here it goes... I used to work in Manila as a call center agent. I would just visit Ormoc for short vacations. Recently, I came home for a 3-day vacation and to cut it short, I met this 21 year old guy. I must admit he;s cute, has the good choiceon clothes and totally appealing. I spent much of my time with him rather than my family and sacrificed reunions with friends... Eventually, we have fallen inlove with each other or should I say, I did fall inlove. So much. His sweetness, his generosity and everything. Sounding both bitter and inlove am I?

I may have been so stupid then for not having realized that it'll end like this. He never introduced me to his family for all those times we've been together. It could've seemed so short. 3 days... But I managed to introduce him to my family... Know what's crazier? He made me promise to work here instead. And I did. I had to go back to file my formal resignation because in my heart, it was all set. "He's the man," I thought... I didn't even wonder why in my 2nd day in Manila, he stopped communicating with me anymore... I don't know what made me push my resignation still despite of that...

I at once flew back because I was missing him already. Eventually, I expected him to fetch me at the Tacloban Airport just like when I left. It's impossible if somebody would tell me I didn't tell him. I did.

So there. I arrived at around 2:50PM and with full of excitement turned my cellphone back on... There were 10 messages unread but of course I opened the message from Charles. It read: "I will always love you my Danielle... You have been a blessing to me..." Honestly, I was delighted knowing that but I twinged because there was something more... It said: "My ex-girlfriend is pregnant and I am the father... I'm sorry but it has to end this way... I can'y continue to hurt you because of this..."

It was like all the lights were turned on before I opened the message but suddenly,there was a major black-out. I couldn't see anymore for tears suddenly rushed down my cheeks... The power that kept me holding failed me... When all the stupidity in the whole wide world came in, most of it came to me...

Teacher Gab... I need you to please enlighten me right now. I am home doing nothing. A part of me still hoping for him to text... A part of me hates him for doing this to me... He may claim this isn't his fault but he has a choice, right? I don't know what to do really... I've given up a lot just for him... Please help me.

-Danielle-

My Big Kuya's Upcoming Wedding

It seems like yesterday when all our worries were all about toys, candies and new clothes... Living in the provincial part of Leyte is never very easy. When you're a little bit older, you might think you are deprived of a lot of things because you're not as wealthy as the people living in the cities.

Kuya Pat as he is known to us, seemed so serious with his studies being the eldest in the family and wanting to get a little bit away from poverty. The family we belong to is never too poor or not even wealthy but still, we want to see ourselves soaring in success. For children you may see now walking 1 km from the house to their school, it may seem fun for them but actually, it's their agony. To Kuya, it was indeed a relief after graduation. Got a good job, studied again and now, about to be wed.

Although they already have a pretty baby, they'll still see themselves walking in the church aisle of Palo Cathedral Church on October 10, 2010. A triple ten date for a wedding. Good choice!
He and Ate Althea will soon face before the altar and be blessed by God with the little bride Esther Bernice...

To both of you, Congratulations and Best Wishes in Advance! I made this simple logo for you but please let me know if you have corrections or if it doesn't pass your standards.. :-D

2010: A Year of a Deeper Friendship

"We keep on shining and on smiling because we know we have each other... to lean on... to be with... to listen... laugh or cry with..."

It's a matter of keeping a heart with a "know-how" when you would want to have friends like them who keeps you get going.. who inspires you a lot and all that.

Nor, Cha, Jo, Glaiz and I went on a Christmas Break Escapade to Baybay-Maasin-Albuera-Ormoc... It was so much fun and the trip has been very much relaxing not to mention the "no sleeps" and the "no silence". We had time to chill out while i tried to get some information about the spots we visited and took some inspiration from the beautiful view to be able to write my articles..

7:00p.m, December 26, 2009. I arrived at Tugas, Baybay, Leyte from Ormoc. A day after Christmas, right? Yes! I wasn't with my family after Christmas! :-D
When i got there, my friends were already wet and wild from the beach! I felt so envious! But i told Jo anyway that we have to go to the beach by Monday.
After dinner, Niño (Jo's bf) invited us to go to a karaoke slot almost a kilometer away from where we were staying. Gosh. But it was sulit anyway! It was his treat! (Thanks Niño!)
We went home at around 2 in the morning and guess what?! We still had to go to Maasin to hike early that Sunday!!! Grabeh! As in we had to wake up at 5a.m so we could still freshen up and eat... It took us 2 hours and 15 minutes to get to Hanginan and climbed an hour to reach the top!
But guess what? It was so much fun! The view from above was very bongga!!!
The following day, we woke up with muscle pains from the hike but we just laughed it out... We went to the beach instead which was located only at the back of Jo's house!!! Imagine?!! Well... we just spent almost the whole day to bathe!!!
The meals were very sumptuous! We had what the military call, boodle fight... :-D
Around 3 in the afternoon, we settled down. Rest from picture taking and shrieking and all that. We had to prepare for the church procession and the disco right after!!!
Would you believe that we ruled the dance floor even if we were not from the place?!
Grabeh... The people even said they never thought we are teachers! Hahahaha... It was embarrassing but t'was ok lang.. They don't know us man.. :-D
Guess what time we decided to go home?! 3a.m!!! Yes, as in 3a.m! And we had to walk 3km because we had no more means of transpo...
What was the result of the night out? Oversleeping!!! We woke up at around 11 in the morning already!!! Had a boodle fight brunch, bathed at the river and what next? We went to the fortune teller!!! Very very fascinating were the words of the woman... I even recorded it! What did she say? Well, that's a secret already... Only me and my friendshipz know it... :-D

After the fortune teller thing, they conceded when i asked them that we go to Albuera to see the beautiful Christmas Lights because they had a contest per barangay for the most beautiful decorations and lights... We were like in wonderland! It was so amazing!
We had our dinner near the lighthouse where there were barbecue stalls... Of course, we had our photo shoots again. That was our last night together...

I had to encourage Glaiz and Charlyn to go with me to Ormoc... Nor was going but with her dear Michael. So together with Niño and Jo, we went to Ormoc, strolled for awhile and we took a ride home.

Every single moment spent with these friends that i have made me think that we'll have a more profound relationship this 2010... That's according my vibrations...

Love Knocks When It's Ready

"Love they say comes in time. You don't have to wait for it. Love knocks when it's ready for you."

I have been in and out of love many times since I realized I am in a world full of it. Not just once, I have been hurt and seemed to have been burned in hell because i fell for it.

Sad...

When i fall inlove, i surely do. And when I say I LOVE YOU, i mean it. But what shakes it is that i could hardly move on once it's over... I could hardly open my heart and hit a brand new start. Well, this is me and I thought i'd be trying to move on over a love that's stupid, forever...


That was what i thought...

When at times i thought i'd fall inlove never, here comes the person i least expected to return... He has been the reason why i couldn't open my heart for someone new to come inside it. He broke my heart two (2) years ago. Two (2) years is already a very long time, right? But guess what?! I was still head over heels about him... I would make sure i'd get to reply when he would text me and all that... But of course, i already told myself that it was going nowhere... That he is never for me...

Love really knocks when it's ready.

When he came home from Cebu, we started to go out and alas! We're together now. Officially. Sometimes, I still can't believe that this has happened but love has it's own time. God answers prayers in due time.

I just hope though that this would last long. The love that's in us may not be forever but I am thankful that for now, we have each other... :-)