Monday, June 30, 2008

Beautiful Sadness


I didn't think there is such thing as beautiful sadness... atleast i didn't.. until later this day.


I hate to make people sad.. i hate it when they are in despair, they carry a load of problems or what have you... but come to think of it, do they bother to just even ask me of i am as down as they have been? I smiled one day... Nah.. i don't have to think that way... i just love to love people even those who don't care or love me...


I hate it when people make fun of themselves and of others... it's like, hey... let's put ourselves in each others shoes for us feel what they feel when we're mocking them...


It has always been my happiness to see people happy... their smiles are more than the world to me... their happiness brings me on cloud 9. but otherwise, it makes me feel depressed...


This i have thought might define "Beautiful Sadness" too... being sad for others welfare... wow...


Sometimes, these people has to learn things in life. That's what i keep telling myself. We all have our downfalls but we also have to give them space to learn and grow up. How will they learn if we cradle them along the way? Keeping them loose opens up pretty much doors to opportunity...


This is also letting go...


Sad though but it's for them to make good fortresses for their own homes in the future...


Beautiful sadness may be defined as an emotion felt for the good of the other. It's like climbing a flight of stairs tirelessly and end up relieved for you have reached your goal in the long run...

Sunday, June 29, 2008

iF yOu wiLL jUsT seE...

Everyday, as i open my eyes and look at a different phase, i have to convince myself to atleast be happy... i have to be glad that i'm still alive.. was still able to wake up after taking a break from the workload in the office...
There is so much to be grateful about... I try to put those words in mind but i don't understand why it's hard to sometimes...It just makes me smile that atleast i still feel sad... i am not numb... not a bit... never...
I might be just tired of everything... i might need a break...
I'm tired of trying to be their superhero...
Tired of the fate i have in love...
Tired of you...
If you can only see how much depression these feelings has brought me...
If you can only feel what i am feeling right now...
If you can only dream what i often dream of...
If only you know how much love i have for you but you just won't mind...
If you are just sensitive enough of what others feel for you, you will know...
That as much as i would want to hold onto these feelings, i can't...
Because if i do, i would be foolish enough... I should direct myself back to the happiness i found inside of me...
I should once again live a life as if nothing has happened...
But if you will just see...we could've both been happy...
Thank you for making me realize one of a few things in life...
There is such a thing as BEAUTIFUL SADNESS...
I found a beautiful song that could best describe my day...
Can't Cry Hard Enough
Jed Madela
I'm gonna live my life
Like everyday's the last
Without a simple goodbye
It all goes by so fast
And now that you're goneI can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enoughFor you to hear me now
Can I open my eyes
And see for the first timeI've let go of you like
A child letting go of his kite
There it goesUp in the sky
There it goesBeyond the clouds
For no reason whyI can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now
Can I look back in vain
And see you standing there
With all that remainsIts just an empty chair
And now that you're goneI can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now
There it goes
Up in the sky
There it goes
Beyond the clouds
For no reason whyI can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enoughFor you to hear me now